Friday, September 10, 2010


I had that vague sense I was dreaming when my sweet Eukas came up from the basement after I'd been missing her so much. Maybe it was the disturbing thought I didn't have a basement, that I remembered I was very sad, or that the cancer that plagued her was gone.

I laid down on the floor and brought her close to me. I knew it was a passing respite, but I breathed her in. I rubbed my face in her fur, and looked into her eyes. I don't think I've ever loved something so deeply in my life.

dreams usually fade, but I don't think this one ever will.

I feel dead inside.