This morning I awoke early. It was grey and the window beaded with a slow rain. Somehow the unseasonably lukewarm weather we've been having suit my mood. I lay there, curled up against my dogs; my two closest friends. I started thinking about how things change. How things were and are, and even how they could have been.
How soft Shadow felt in my hands, and Eukas' warmth against me was very comforting. I started crying thinking of the day when I'm going to lose them. I'm crying now even writing about it. In my life thus far, they have been my favorite of all beings. How I wish they could be with me forever...but those are foolish wishes.
It's been nearly a month since I've spoken to Adam. A few nights before he left, before he admitted to himself that he was going to leave, we lay next to eachother in muted blue light. No words were spoken but I knew what was coming. I could see his determination in his face, how he hardened himself against me. I couldn't help myself, I reached out and started touching his face. My fingers crossed his cheeks, graced his eyebrows and caressed his boyish full lips. His eyes, glassy and dark opened.
"What are you doing?", he asked me.
"Memorizing your face for when you're gone", I replied.