obvious but unseen

second day, little less frantic.  Highlight, chicken ceaser salad and shower.  I've stopped memorizing the nurses names as they come and go.  I have this little ole black man with pneumonia as a roomie, and he sounds just like gollum.  He's had three separate visitations since I've been here, I've had none. 

That's not necessarily a bad thing, but when your own mother doesn't come.  I wonder sometimes why I keep talking to her.  It's been obvious for years that I'm alone in this world. Missing Sophie tremendously.  I'm hoping to go home tomorrow and snuggle with her on the couch.