deja vu

there are scenes that upon experiencing, I knew intrepidly and inexplicably would happen to me.

the old man next door set on his front porch, legs grossly swollen from diabetes.  I couldn't help but stare thinking of the Elephant man. 

Knowing the love of my life would destroy my heart by sleeping with a woman, in our bed.

Having a foot amputated

and today, riding in an ambulance while thinking I was dying of a heart attack.