birthday

I turn 36 today. I awoke early in a panic early this morning. No special day ahead for me, no special person to somehow make me smile when I wanted to stay in bed all day.

Two years ago, Adam came home from work and made me cry. His kindness was so overwhelming. I still think about him everytime I listen to the portable.

One year ago, Steven gave me the most wonderful date I've ever experienced. Oh how I long to be driving again and holding someone's hand like I held his.

This year, I've really no one. There are people in my life....marginally.

I really need to be someone's special guy.