sigh

...this is the first time i've put this in writing, but I think ....feel, death is near.

not from my own doing, directly....

I just feel old.  i'm far too nostalgic, far too unhappy.  too alone.

decided to go off my meds, as each day was grey and Un Noteworthy. Days still grey, just now i feel them.

lose myself in movies, but then i'm mournfull for all those moments that will never come again

thrilled over the falling leaves

my scattered brain

missing raymond, thinking it should have been me