I've always had a difficult time letting go. I think it stems from abandonment from my mother...growing up with friends and knowing their parent(s) were around. I grew up with my grandparents was was always reminded how they were doing me a favor.
I can't remember whether Charles or Rodney left first; both after an intimate encounter that ended communication.
Tim was next....I guess I was too wild for him. I know I was....but we were all different then. John was the first boyfriend to leave, then Adam followed by Steven. John came back, but we never really feel the same....I learned I can live without any of them.
And finally, Randy. He decided his life needed to go in a direction that didn't include me. What took some time to realize, is that this is MY story, and his chapter in MY book ended, but the story goes on.